When you start to recover your creativity, something you didn't expect appears: sadness. Not the sadness of not being able to create, but that of having spent years without doing so. It's a legitimate duel, and Cameron dedicates important space to it in the process.
When you start to recover your creativity, something you didn't expect appears: sadness. Not the sadness of not being able to create, but that of having gone years without doing it. It's a legitimate duel, and Cameron dedicates important space to it in the process.
What are you losing (and what are you finding)
When doing the Week 1 exercises, many people write about dreams they gave up ten, twenty, thirty years ago. An instrument that they stopped playing. A notebook that was never opened. A race they never started. And when writing it, they feel the loss with an intensity that surprises them.
That is creative duel. And it's a good sign. It means that the artist within is still alive — hurt, angry, but alive. And he's starting to talk.
"Anger is the indicator that creativity wants to come out. If you are angry, it is because something inside you knows that you deserve more."
The phases of creative grief
Denial
"Well, it wasn't that important either." "It's not that I really wanted to be an artist." Minimizing creative desire is the first defense. But if it wasn't important, it wouldn't hurt.
Gonna
"Why didn't anyone encourage me?" “Why did I waste so much time?” Anger is energy. Cameron says it's the clearest sign that your inner artist is awakening.
Negotiation
"Maybe if I had..." "If I could still..." It's time for alternative fantasies. Let them pass. The past cannot be changed, but the future can.
Sadness
The pure and clean sadness of having lost years. Don't reject it. Cry her if you have to. The morning pages are a safe space for this.
Acceptance and action
"I can't get those years back, but I can start today." This is where grief becomes a driving force. Sadness, processed, transforms into determination.
"Grief is the price of entry to the creative life. But once paid, the door opens wide."
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